Friday, October 21, 2011

Silly pill, glad I'm off it now

Well after 6 years of being on hormone based contraceptives, coming off it has made me realise what side effects they had. I've realised that my libido had taken a nose-dive while I was on the pill! I've never been the most "lustful" women, I struggle to understand how people can get quite so carried away that they have one-night stands or affairs, because I find my brain is too much in charge for something like that to happen (which is great!). When I've decided something that's important to me, then I'm quite firm about it e.g. I don't like smoking, so even when drunk I'm not going to start smoking, if anything I'll go into preaching-mode against smoking!

After a quick search online, it seems that decrease in libido is not uncommon for people on Cerazette and it looks like I should be greatful that I didn't have mood swings as well! I can't complain much about the little pill, it took my periods away 98% for the year, which meant I had no period pain or the expense of buying sanitory products. Now is the best time to have an increased libido - when we're trying for a baby! Coming off the pill has reassured me that it wasn't me imagining me being less keen, also I've spoken to my newly married friend whose told me that she's felt a decrease too, so I was able to reassure her! I guess it's just the sacrifice we have to make after playing God with our hormones!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Coralie & Dans

We spent the weekend (Fri-Sun) with our friends Coralie and Dan, in London, because we went to a Christian New Media conference on Saturday.

Coralie is pregnant, and the conversation on Friday night ended up on the subject of when they'd decided to start trying for a baby, or should I say when they "stopped trying to NOT have a baby". Well, we decided to share where we're at! It was great to chat with them. Coralie & I looked through her pregnancy book & chatted, while Andy & Dan had a manly chat!

It's been interesting reading the pre-trying stuff in her book, although it does seem like a "perfect guide". For example it says have NO alcohol from trying onwards... Eat perfectly... Check full family history & get tons of health checks before even considering to try for a baby. I'm not sure the doctor I saw would have suggested checking my Rubella immunity, before getting preggers, if I hadn't mentioned it. The doctor I saw, basically checked I didn't smoke, and wasn't an alcoholic, and then said that if I needed a drink to relax in the evening, then that was fine. Well I think somewhere in the middle is the best way to go - rarely drinking, but an odd drink won't hurt. After reading the book, it seems like I basically need to do similar to what I did when I was on Weightwatchers - good balanced healthy diet, exercise, lack of alcohol. After
talking to Coralie & another friend whose trying, it really does seem that I've done more prep than many.

I'm glad I got a chance to read her book, because now I know what it advises to avoid in the early stages, which I can avoid while trying. I've given up using Cod Liver Oil tablets (& taken up wateraerobics), I know Ibruprofen is best to avoid (as can't use when pregnant), as is the more risky/less cooked foods (which I don't really eat anyway). I now really don't drink much, I might have an occasional small glass of wine at home, but less often.

Being a driver is really going to help me in the 1st few months of pregnancy when I'm trying to keep quiet about it: "sorry I can't drink, I'm driving"! I've already started this tactic. Christmas & New Year could be a bit interesting though, but a few people know we're trying (I can't keep my mouth shut to everyone), so they might take the pressure off me.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Gross times

Yucky full on periods, I really have not missed you! I think my body is having a autumn clean out down there! I'm so glad that I kept my stocks of sanitory products, as they are much needed now! Bloods clots r us! It's all very gross! Lets hope the worst is over the next few days, and settles down before the weekend when I'm off to London for the weekend!

Oh well, I'd better get ready for work!

To take or not to take?!

Before coming off the pill a full on period kicked in. Now this is the first time that I've had a proper (enough blood to warrant a proper pad) period for a few years!

I'm starting to think that there's no point continuing with taking the pill. I was basically just holding out to hear the result of the blood test on Thursday, and then was thinking I might as well wait until we return from a weekend in London, in case there's any side effects like my period suddenly kicking in, but since I've already got my period (and will need to plan for in case it continues), I'm not sure there's not much point waiting. I'm just keen to get the progestogen out of my system and give my body a chance to get back to "normal".

Some of the hormone changes won't be so much fun, like the return of the periods and period pain, but I'm hoping to be more hormonally charged around the ovulation time of the month!! Hehe!

I'm trying to get in the mind set that it will take a while to conceive, and that it's a chance to just enjoy my body returning to normal. It's my optimistically pessimistic approach - plan for the worse situation, so that if you get it you're not so disappointed, but if the better happens you celebrate. It's the "less of a fall" approach!

Well I know another couple who are trying to conceive, and I've told them about us, and where we're at, so that at least we've got one couple that we can talk to about this. It gave me a chance to discuss Rubella immunity and taking Folic Acid. She said they'd been recommended that he take Zinc!

Friday, October 7, 2011

Note to self, stop Googling things

OK I've had the blood test (to check I'm immune to Rubella), now I've got to wait to until Thursday to phone for the results.

Earlier on I decided to Google "stopping Cerezette". Oh bad move. I should know by now I'm just going to get told all about the bad reactions that people have had, because people are more likely to post on blogs/forums about bad reactions to things than good reactions! After reading a few, and feeling a bit worried about the drug and what affect it's had already and could protentially have when I stop taking it, I had to stop myself reading. I won't know how I will react, until I stop taking it. It does seem to be one of those drugs which can affect people in different ways. So far, it's been kind to me, I've had a good relationship with it. Now lets see how my body feels about saying goodbye to it!

I think my body had been reading this blog, because after years of nothing that could really be called a period, I then had a 2 day period. What I can't quite understand.... (stop reading if you want to avoid the grossness...

...Why is it that when sat on the loo: I wipe, there's lots of blood, a put a pad on, a go away for a while, when I return to the toilet, my pad barely shows any evidence of said period, but once again there's plenty of blood when I wipe?! Weird.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Aqua aerobics

I started that last post with the intention of saying how I'd been to aqua aerobics this morning, but I kind of got distracted!!

Baby talk again

My bookmarks on my browser and the peoples blogs I read through Google Reader, are becoming more and more pregnancy/baby related! Ekk! Me, becoming a little obsessed?!?! Nah!

I really struggle with this whole not telling people things about pregnancy. I totally understand why, but I'm not one to keep quiet when somethings happening in my life that's interesting. That is kind of the reason I've got this blog, it's my outlet, my place to vent, scream, shout, or declare stuff to the world, without them really knowing who I am!

The whole question of "ohh, so are you trying?" is always fun, because no, we're not...YET. We're preparing to start trying, I haven't quite given up those little white pills every morning!

Can I just say, I am going to miss being free of periods! I've basically had a few years or no more than a few days of period (if that), maybe every few months! Goodbye little liners, out come the big whoppers again! Fun times! I can't really complain, I've never suffered from periods as some people do, a bit of an ache in the lower stomach area, and may be less comfortable below and that's the worst of it! Maybe I'm just a wimp. Ut oh, this pregnancy thing is going to be interesting!! I would really like to take after my Mum with my pregnancy, she makes it out to have been easy compared to some "all day long & for months" morning sickness experiences that I've seen from people at church! I would not be surprised if that couple never have another child - she had a real rough deal!!

Friday morning is my blood test to find out if I'm immune to getting Rubella. I've just asked my friend if she checked it, because I know she's trying, and she didn't know about it. She's had all her jabs though, so only 1 in 100 chance that it would be a problem, and it seems like it might be checked when pregnant anyway.