Thursday, September 29, 2011

Considering starting to try for a baby?

Just to drive the point home, following my other post...

To anyone out there thinking of coming off your method of contraception and trying for a baby. If you're generally in good health, there's not much point making a doctors appointment, just phone up your doctors surgery and ask for a blood test for Rubella!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Every man and his dog

This morning, as I walked from my car to the house I was working at, which is past my parents neighbours too, one of the neighbours started chatting to me. He's "known" me by sight for years, and is friendly with my parents. He asked me when I was going to have a baby, to give my parents grandchildren! It amused me.

I've had many people ask me when I'm going to start a family. Wow, lots of pressure. I'm sorry, but I've enjoyed being married without children for a while.

That appointment was just exercise

I've just been to my Doctors Appointment re trying for a baby. It wasn't really worth it, as I didn't find out anything that I didn't know before, and other than asking me a few questions (no I smoke or drink), he didn't do any health checks. I was expecting a comment about weight: might be good to loose a few pounds, but he didn't check my weight.

When I phoned up earlier this week, and spoke to the receptionist, I said I wanted to have a baby, and wanted an appointment to get a health check, and I'd check for Rubella immunity. I told her I wasn't sure if that was a doctor or nurse thing, she said "oh that'll be a doctors appointment." Well it seems that I could have skipped the doctors appointment and just made an appointment to see the phlebotomist, to take some blood, to check whether I am the 1/100 not immune to Rubella, because I've now got an appointment to see her (or him, but can't remember seeing a male one there). I've got to wait for over a week to see her as well! I'm glad I'm not desperate to start trying NOW!

Oh to explain the title. It was just exercise, because I walked the 2X15min journey there and back. I can't say I've been lazy today, as earlier I did some jogging/running (it's a fine line between them - out of breathe/really out of breathe!). My reason for the "jogging", was that I thought I'd get one of the chaps I support out of the house, and out on his bike, but because I didn't have my bike there, I had to walk/jog. He's generally quite slow, as his bikes set on a low gear, and I couldn't figure out how to get it higher! I get him to cycle down a cycle path, away from traffic, so I can let him go ahead no worries. Today however, I wanted him to wait for me at the end of the path, on the way back, so that we could pop into the chemist before going home, but he wasn't listening and cycled on and back home! I attempted to run after him and shout his name, but it wasn't the end of the world, and it seemed safe enough, so I just let him go - no point knackering myself trying to keep up with him cycling down a hill!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Dear God...

...as you know I'm finally giving in and agreeing growing life inside me. I know I'm now 30, and getting a bit older, and that ideally I would love to have 2 children in total, but can I please request, that I don't have the two children in one go!

A few reasons:
  • I'm not a tall gal, 2 children in my womb - that's just not funny!
  • You know the size of our flat, it's only just sensibly big enough for one child, let alone two! We're still working on how we're going to adjust the place to allow enough room for baby stuff!
  • I'm so inexperienced, two at once is just cruel!
  • Child birth - enough said...

Mixed feelings

I'm not an overly emotional person. People have referred to me as being a very calm person - personally, I think I'm just good at covering up my nerves/worries to the general public. Recently, the whole idea of having a baby, has sent my body into such a mixture of feelings! I'm excited, nervous, anxious, worried, longing, happy... I worry about the practicalities and how it'll be such a massive thing once I am pregnant, and then when I have our first child - how will I cope, is our flat big enough, our lives will change a LOT...

I think this is just one of those things that I really need my faith, and to really just trust in God on this. Andy and I have had 6 years of married life without a child, so I think it's time to grow up and become parents! Ahhhhh!

OK, enough rambling on about what I'm pondering, I need to go and run a youth club now! Lets hope tonight doesn't put my off having kids!

Monday, September 26, 2011

Baby?

We're pondering the scary move to becoming parents! We can just about cope with looking after ourselves, for the last few years I've learnt how to wipe bottoms and put on pads/adult nappies - granted on adults, but it can't be much different in the grand scheme of things! We've been married for 6 years now, and we've both now turned 30, so we really do have no more excuses left! I can almost hear that biological clock ticking! I may not look my age, but I can't guarrantee that my reproductive system feels the same way, my body definitely can't do the same things I could in my early 20s!

We'd been aiming for some time around now to start trying, so I look up what is wise to do before trying for a baby, and I basically find out, that I should have looked this up 3 months ago! I've booked myself a health MOT on Wednesday, and I know I need to get a blood test, to check whether I still have an immunity to Rubella, and if not, then it's another jab and a 3 months wait before we can start trying!

I managed to loose 3 stone in weight in 2 years, and managed to get to my choosen goal weight or 8 1/2 stone! Sadly I was really struggling by the end, because although I was still going to Weightwatcher meetings, I'd pretty much given up on the plan, I was just tired of keeping track of everything I ate and drank. This was of course to my detriment, because my own way, was never going to be as effective. Since reaching goal, some of the weight has slowly crept back on, and I'm now about 9 stone! DOH! I don't dare go back to the WW class in case their scales tell me it's even more, and if I weigh more than 8 stone 12Ibs then I have to pay!

I'm thinking about going back to swimming. It's been a long time. I'd like to have a go at Aquaaerobics, but after a quick search for days and times of classes, fitting it regularly around my jobs & youth club could be a challenge! We'll see. Maybe I should just go swimming! I've been getting hip pain recently, and I'm worried that it could get worse when pregnant and I can't take Cod Liver oil as I have been!

New start

Ok, I've started up this blog, to allow myself a space online to say what I'm thinking/feeling, without worrying who will read it. My other blog has been going for a while, and I've got a few friends/family following it, and possibly a few others, but I don't want those people to necessarily read what I want to say at the moment.

Lets see how this blog goes, and go from there.

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